Hi Fatima,
It might be an idea to find out if there's a pagan moot running locally to where you live,i run a local one(unfortunately not near you)some are just social get-togethers,some have speakers on various topics,but they're a good way to meet pagans,discuss what you/they believe and generally work out where you're coming from in your own head....everyone's path is exclusive to themselves

and you neither need to explain or justify it to anyone else.
Both my partner and myself are pagans and even we differ

if you've got any questions or just want a chat please feel free to pm me
