To all those who worried

[mrsflibble]

Thankyou for your thoughts. I've had a crap month, a bad infection myself, then sophie got thrush again and was sent for blood tests by our gp because of the regular occurance of her infections. the results came back and she's fine, but we're having to change her diet slightly.

I myself also got taken to hospital a couple of weeks back with incredible abdominal pain which turned out to be IBS. I've been having a hard time trying to work out what the trifggers are, and when it's bad working the IBS medication into my normal medication routine and having to remember to take the stuff; terrible memory+regular medication=unmedicated flibble.

so, I am alive... but busy with crap hahaha!

mentally I am quite good though; i dont think the counselling is working out because my counsellor doesnt seem to actually listen to me and is reading too much into innocuous situations so i think i am gonna ask to either have a beak, or end it all together. 'm doing well working through things at home though, and i think what helps a lot is James is opening up more about sophie's birth too.

I do still love you all!!!! happy birthday to those who I missed.

[snapdragon]

take care MrsF

on IBS - i deleted dairy from my diet and that was it - was lucky to choose the right item first off

[mrsflibble]

mine appear to be beef, wholewheat pasta, wholemeal bread and possibly lamb.

[becks77]

Blimey hope next month is better for you, nice to see you back

[Penny Lane]

I thought it was quiet here!

Hope you're back to your normal self soon m'dear

[red]

glad your ok. Hope things improve too

[StripyPixieSocks]

Glad to know you're still around, hope you and yours get yourselves stable and sorted soooooooooon. BIG hugs to you, don't be a stranger, we miss you :D

[Millymollymandy]

Glad you are OK Mrs Flib!

[gigglybug]

Hope you feel better soon!!

[growingthings]

xxx

[theabsinthefairy]

[invisiblepiper]

AH - wondered where you were hiding!

[Moonwaves]

Hi there,

I'm fairly new so don't know you or your background very well. Just a thought on counselling though, if your counsellor doesn't suit you, consider trying to find a different one before you decide to give up on it or take a break. I always thought myself to have been incredibly lucky to have gotten a fantastic counsellor first time round (name chosen at random from three I was given to contact) who was prepared to listen to me and tailor the counselling to what I wanted/needed. There are so many different approaches to therapy and when you add in the individual personalities of all the different counsellors as well, well, there's a lot of choice and you may need to just find the one for you. Again, I don't know what your situation is or whether changing counsellors is even a possibility (financially, geographically etc.) but just thought I'd make the point.

Hope you feel better soon.

[mrsflibble]

thanks for the thoughts moonwaves, i did discuss everything with the counsellor and i am still sure ending it is the best thing at the moment. She works for a local charitable organisation which gives counselling on a slding scale. I was paying £5 a week because we're on one income and have a child. the scale goes from £3 a week to £45 depending on your status and income. I know that should I need more, they are there, they are non judgmental, they are walking distance from my home and whereas the NHS counselling waiting list is 18 months in this area, the private sector waiting time is around 6 weeks from first contact to first session.

I have post traumatic stress disorder (oh yeah, finally got a proper diagnosis!!! i'm not bipolar and i dont have any form of schizoid disorder!) arrising from the incredibly traumatic birth of my darling daughter. I had an amniotic fluid embollism which culmonated in respiratory arrest, then a heart attack and finally a coma until the massive doses of antihistemines kicked in. i am incredibly lucky to be alive, but until recently i felt like a massive part of me had died when i gave birth.

I am on Prozac which is helping so much, it's giving my brain less to concentrate on with regards to voices in my head, seeing things, paranoia and depression and giving it more time to work out what the underlying problems are. I feel like with medication, meditation (which I am also loving right now, omg massive mental clarity), keeping a diary and talking to people who were actually there and remember what went on is more helpful to me right now, but thanks so much for your concern. I really appreciate it.

I realised today that despite having stomach ache from stupidly eating a beef curry for dinner last night, I love my life, I appreciate being alive and everything's good.


I think it also helps that hubby has started talking about the birth too.